they will be whoever they wanted to be. he swam until he lost direction of the shore. his perfect brother, he had never lost before. and he found the friend. the kind you give your own blood for. and she found the kind of friend. the kind you wait your whole life for. no regrets. he wanted it so bad he could taste it. they never suspected a thing. and that's something that carries a sense of pride and accomplishment. a reason to live Photel California crimson, blue, magenta. fading with desire. otherwise known as madness. (her glass eyes, her glass fist). seize the moment or lose your chance. these windows they shut premature. "where'd you get the jeans?" he asked. "mexico." a mug was raised to a glass Jambalaya dove-like stares. so blank. so long like prayers. that never filled your self-made hole inside our hearts. so don't you talk? no, no. don't you feel? no, no. don't you hurt? no, no. this is not what you believed in. down these stairs we had our fun i swear. we've got more feelings in our lost and lonely hearts. so don't you talk about it? don't you feel some doubt. and don't it hurt? god protect. is this not what you believed in? i was denied tonight. so let's just hold our hands out. everyone is down. so far so in-between. does every girl think the same? hon, take care, i heard the news, i'm scared. they said the sky was bright, brilliant with our cause. but don't you talk to him and don't you feel something and don't you hurt ever? this is not what you believed in. i was denied tonight Right Now, Today, I Don't Believe In Hell with nicotine nails and coke-red eyes. she said. believe you me, i don't want to die. he softly touched her cheek. girl, it's gonna be alright. and they embraced in the lie. it's a quarter to ten, where could she be? we're all biting our lips cuz we're thinking the same damn thing. then she stumbles into the door. there's vomit on her chest and she's spitting blood all over the floor. you think this dance is over? think again. this is war, these are mines and yes, those are your friends. and your cup it runneth over with love to give. so show me heart. so show me soul. just show me anything at all. now imagine a cold, bleak day. all that was red is replaced with rhino gray. so it's dust to dust on a holiday. i guess it takes all kinds. please be strong. carry on. don't be long. and honey come home